the progress to be perfect !!

wow... it's an amazing performance and touching moment i have when i watching this singing competition.... he has impressed the audience, the judges and ME too... and he get FULL SCORE... why??? cos he is typical CHINA man... he is made by china la... hahhahaa ..not that ok?? !!! but he sang the hokkien songs like so fluent and i can see that he put alot of hard work and effort in order to perform the best...

when i watching this part... actually i have thought of myself too... why??? hahaha... it's regarding my interview.... cos im like the candidate.. taking the assessment and interview... like singing on the stage...suppose to impress the interviewer.... and i think i have made the best and actually wow the interview without actually do alot of pre-preparation.... coz i can see the way of the first interviewer keep saying...yea..yea..yea... true ... true... hahaha... i think because we are from the same country...so...easy to talk.. and felt closer...

however.. i really doubt myself on the second interview... which is the most important stage to be hired... i really nervous and no preparation with tired mind... meeting a white who is a partner already is my honour and pleasure... but i dun think i din take this seriously.... really have a thought that i will be failed this time ...cos i din see any brightness on my future...

i cant sleep well... and can act properly... everyday waiting the call from them..

AM I DESERVE THE chance for the job??? or working in the big 4 companies actually it's just a unreachable desire.... please call me... pls... i wish to have good dream ASAP... i need a job.. i need to work.. I AM WORKOHOLIC...

it's a sunny or it's snowing... i let the god aka... EY to decide for me...judgement day coming in 1 day??? 3 days?? but even i get the offer... can i start ASAP??? it's another issue d...

3 days to get the news... and change my life...
be jobless here and working in the stupid chinese restaurant where is a totally disaster...
or
come back in august..
settle my debt owed to friends and credit card by this year...
car loan by next year...
one year one country trip???
buying house???
all it's will be finalised by this CALL....important one