something tat i think to write instead put on my mouth...

it has been 4.5 months in Ireland...being lonely, desparate, disturbia...
and certainly disappearred from social network like facebook, msn....

i have never top up my phone and my phone has never been rang for quite sometimes..(i miss my kesha - tik tok)...

i know i being unrealistic...think to come over Ireland to get a job which will earn 5 times of current job....dream to have easy life.... think to have different life experience.... but it all came from a dream... i dreamed a dream..unrealistic one..
i hav being negative,.... starting to doubt on my ability, capability in work, social and studies....everthing..

after changed and changed my plan.... i am going to the beginning... ppl know this will know wat it means.... and i know still there are ppl will never concern bout it... it's ok..i know.... i have been unrealistic... o someone said "fou kua" (in cantonese which i will remember it indefinitely)

i being discourage when i need couragements... when i wan to cry... no one will pass tissue to me... and i will only get criticism seems like everythings are all my fault... (true.. indeed and i noted)

who knows that i have sent over thousands resume and online application... who will know that other than sleep, class... the rest of the days i have spent on job applications... no one... but it's ok... it's my business, it doesnt matter anymore...

who knows that i have suffered gastric, fever, and soar throat recently... u know...just happened..no one know right.. (but of cos there are still so called friends concerned who i am very grateful)

i will start my new life again... in totally different country in near future... i wont tell anyone where i am going(congratulation to whom know my latest news...sorry to whom dunno which mean our friendship / relationship just end here....no more further ^^)... u will know when the time comes... and i will not leave my telephone no behind...cos i know no one will call me even i left (true right??)

dunno why i suddenly have the intention to write bout this... just suddenly feel very streess and no one is concern bout me... i have never get attention for long time... i will become selfish person... but still will contribute my low class + cheap heart to ppl who i care... if u think that i have long time din contact u... u will know the consequense.....

btw... thanks to derrick, alex, si yuan, thaimfook and anyone who think they concern on me... to whom never call me up... dun ever call me again... no replies will get from me and thank you very much to give me an GOLDEN OPPORTUNITY to see ur truly side...

i hereby announce... i am single and available.... interested...call me ^^