in the end...still no call from them

wat a torturing week for me...
after the partner interview with Kieran Kally, the partner of EY...
have made myself so nervous coz i think i have made terrible mistake in the interview and i din show my confidence to the interviewer....
and another big problem is the permanency of working in IRELAND...

waiting and waiting.... from MONDAY to TODAY... almost 120 hours...
never eat well, never chat well, never rest well, never sleep well
all my mind is about whether i would be hired o not???
but getting higher and higher chance to get rejection??
or actually they thinking o checking on my working permit application availability??
from my mind... there are alot ??!?!?!?!?!?!? appeared...

FROM TODAY until now... after working hours... i just can wait wait wait..
last night i have not even slept for a moment...
hands holding the phone waiting for the morning, waiting the ring...
it's hard to make decision...
eventhough after 4.30pm...making 3 call to look for them... there were no answer and no one around...wat's happening.. it's big company...one of the most hearted of the dept... why no one around.... sigh sigh

i can say... waiting is harder than making decision... im dying....im out of breath... feel like being chocked...

pls help me...how long i shall wait.....
before i get the ACCA result and before i get the call from the EY...
i saw the flight arrived to the airport.... in front of myself...so close so close..
and after the partner interview....
i saw the flight departure from the airport...so close so close too...

is it mean anything???
my eye sight is so blur...
pls...give me light...lead me to the destination i can reach and i wish to reach....

i have bad feeling... and i feel it badly.....